Soul angst

Winter came last week to Northern Colorado. It was over 70 degrees one day but by the next morning the temps had dropped to the mid 20s and there was snow blowing around. I feel the angst in my soul as I drive today. People who know me may say a lot of different things to describe me, but one thing I know no-one will say is this: “That Glyn, he’s such a chilled chap”. I live on the edge of angst in my soul most of the time. I’m prone to worry, anxiety and feel stressed. 

This is why one of my favorite passages is in Philippians 4:6-7 “Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus”. 

The prescription for soul angst is prayer which results in peace. 

Let’s define peace: 

  • Worldly peace – absence of pain – fear – worry – (temporary – experienced based) 
  • God-given peace – Shalom – abiding in God’s presence – trusting in God’s promises – confession – worship – prayer – time with God – sanctuary 

God wants you and I to know His peace. But His peace isn’t forced on us; it’s a gift we need to receive. That receiving requires a response of faith. A response that primarily looks to God and not our emotions or circumstances. 

That’s so easy to say and yet for me, especially in this season, it’s a minute by minute faith choice. We are trying to sell our house in Colorado and move back to Illinois. We are trying to raise support so I can begin working supporting church planters all over the world. 

As I read these verses again I think about the word “guard” towards the end of this passage. God wants to guard against the natural angst in my heart with His presence and His peace. So if I am not living in a place with soul peace, no matter what is going on, then it’s me that’s moved from hIm and not Him from me. 

I had a series of convicting revelations recently. I share these to encourage and challenge you in your own faith journey. 

  1. It’s so easy for me to take my eyes off of God and onto my situation or how I feel at that given moment. The result is that I am up and down depending on what’s happening. I need to grow in my faith.
  2. I regularly bring my burdens to God. I have had such sweet times with God during the last few weeks. He has met with me in such a powerful and personal ways. Yet my heart is still focused on my requests and not my God. I am learning that I want answers and think that’s my greatest need. God is teaching me that He is what I need most. I pray for a buyer for our house and for support but God is calling me to seek Him above all else. 

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